Singer and TV presenter Brenda Edwards said her son Jamal “walked by with me by the hand” as she gave her first interview since his death.
BTV founder Jamal Edwards died on February 20 at the age of 31.
Ahead of her return to ITV’s Loose Women on April 26, Edwards, 52, spoke to panellist Coleen Nolan about Jamal’s death, saying: “It was sudden and unexpected and he went into cardiac arrest and then died with me holding his hand.
“So knowing that I was with him gives me a little comfort.”
Edwards has been a regular panelist on Loose Women since 2019.
Speaking to Nolan, 57, at her home, Edwards continued, “As much as that’s a comfort, it’s also a vision I’ll never forget.
“And I wake up every morning and obviously all his photos are still in the house and I look at him and I say ‘Good morning baby,’ and I say ‘Good night baby.’
“And I think doing that keeps me going.”
Music entrepreneur Jamal rose to fame after founding music platform SBTV in 2006 and has been credited with helping launch a number of British music acts to fame including Ed Sheeran, Dave and Jessie J.
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Edwards told Nolan that she “takes each day as it comes” as she learns to live with her son’s death.
She added: “I feel his presence constantly.
“And I know I’ve always been someone who has faith and believes in that, and that’s been a huge comfort to me.”
She also shared details about her son’s funeral, which she described as a “homecoming.”
“One thing that was hard for me was the fact that the announcement of his death was taken away from me and announced elsewhere, but I was glad I managed to stay in control of his homecoming service,” she said .
She added: “When we put him to rest it was really beautiful. We looked up at the sky and there was a J. The clouds had formed a J and a friend took a picture of it.”
Edwards said she founded the Jamal Edwards Self Belief Trust in his memory, saying: “It was founded with two main aspects in mind.
“Jamal was about empowering young people. We want to set up an academy for 16 to 21-year-olds who, if you will, do an internship for a year in an organization where they learn everything from scratch.
“And then we also want to set up a homeless shelter.”
Of her son’s legacy, Edwards said, “He said, ‘We all die. The goal isn’t to live forever, it’s to create something that will.” And I think he created something that will, and I’m committed to making sure that it will. That is my goal.”
Edwards will return to the Loose Women panel tomorrow for the first time since February. She said: “It was great to have the ladies there and that was something that was a big part of my life and the lives of the kids, so I have to go back. I don’t even want to, I have to go back.”
After the interview, Loose Women panelists Ruth Langsford, Coleen Nolan, Frankie Bridge and Jane Moore read messages of support for Brenda from the audience.
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