Jamie Borthwick, who has played Jay Brown on EastEnders since 2006, has revealed his disabled phobia of throwing illness, known as emetophobia
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EastEnders star Jamie Borthwick has spoken for the first time about being haunted by phobias, which makes him scared to leave home because he feels so “unsafe”.
The 27-year-old actor has been playing Jay Brown on the BBC since 2006 and in a new interview he talks about extreme agoraphobia – the fear of vomiting, seeing vomit, seeing others vomit or even vomiting. even feeling sick – which led to a huge stress in his life, which led to him being constantly worried and feeling “quite annoyed” about germs.
He said: “I’ve never really talked about it, but I’m just having a moment where I’m like, ‘Whatever.’ I have a real phobia about being sick, called emetophobia.
Apparently, it’s the second most common phobia.
“I was really suffering with that, and it affected me in so many ways. I don’t want to go out, I don’t want to shake people’s hands. It’s become a germ problem and I’m pretty OCD about things like that.
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“I don’t want to be in a busy environment where there are a lot of people.
“It just makes me feel really nervous and I don’t like it at all. I really don’t like being away from home. It started like that, but then as I got older, it developed a little bit more. into random bouts of anxiety, where I just felt terrible.
“I felt so insecure. Then it really let me down. It stopped me from living my life, it stopped me from going out. I missed the opportunity.”
Jamie – just 12 years old when he first joined EastEnders – admits the phobia also makes him “really selfish”, and although he accepts it will never go away, the star now has able to cope with his condition.
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“I’ve been trying to get the right help and it’s never going to work,” he said. I’ll never be fine when I’m sick. When. But I just have to deal with it, and deal with it the best way I can.
“But there’s a point where it’s not good for me, or the people around me. Because if I’m not feeling well, if I’m feeling anxious about something and it’s not feeling right, it affects the other people I’m with.
Because my mood will change and then it will affect them. If we go out, I can say, ‘I don’t want to be here, I want to go home.’ I became quite selfish. I just don’t know where it came from, it just happened to me randomly.
“Now I can understand it. I have a bag of tools that I can use to manage it, and understand that there are times when I’m not in the environment I want to be around. Things will not be served to suit me all the time. I understand and accept that.
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“I suppose I learned to manage it in the best way possible at the time, and now I’m going back to five or six years ago. I’m just really selfish and I’m not going to put myself in a situation that makes me feel unsafe.”
But Jamie will always feel safe around her late EastEnders co-star Dame Barbara Windsor, who passed away in 2020 aged 83, and he misses the Carry On legend – who played Peggy Mitchell in the BBC drama – as a “complete icon”, as well as admitting that he had a crush on her while viewing some of her earlier work.
Speaking on the Lads, Dads and a Couple of Beers podcast, he added: “Her husband Scott [Mitchell] was my agent for six or seven years.
“He really is a wonderful man. He is so warm, kind and lovely, we are great, great friends. He is a special person in my life. Barbara is also very special. so.
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“She was the first person I met on EastEnders and she has this amazing ability to be able to reassure people. You know that you meet someone and you feel really calm and safe around them – that’s what Barbara used to be. You can feel her aura when she’s there.
“She is a complete icon. I was watching a clip from the movie The Sparrow Can’t Sing, and I said to my dad, ‘She’s back to how she used to be, isn’t she?’
“She really is. She’s very showbiz, but in a very lovely way.”
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