Gisele Bündchen is an open book – and talks about her past suicidal thoughts.
The Brazilian model has been admirably transparent about her new life and opened up about her divorce from NFL veteran Tom Brady. However, in an upcoming “CBS News Sunday Morning” interview, Bündchen reflects on her past modeling days.
“I was in tunnels” She told host Lee Cowan. “I couldn’t breathe. And then I started being in studios and I felt suffocated. I lived on the ninth floor and had to walk up the stairs because I was afraid I would get stuck in the elevator and hyperventilate.”
“You know, when you can’t breathe even with the windows open, you feel like, ‘I don’t want to live like that, you know what I mean?'” Bündchen continued, before being asked if she ever “really thought about it.” to actually jump out of the window: “Yes. For about a second.”
The mother of two recently expressed how grateful she was to have quit drinking and joyfully celebrated her 43rd birthday, but also detailed her frustration over the public divorce. Bündchen’s psychological problems are anything but rare in the fashion industry.
Fashion designer Kate Spade’s death in 2018 sparked new research from the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention that showed… 30% increase in suicide rates in 25 US states between 1999 and 2016. During this period, several models committed suicide.
“Kate suffered from depression and anxiety for many years” Her husband Andy Spade told The New York Times in 2018. “She actively sought help and worked closely with her doctors to treat her illness, which is taking far too many lives.”
cuffs told People in 2018 that she “actually felt like, ‘If I just jump off my roof, this will be over and I’ll never have to worry about my world contracting.'”
“When I think back to that moment and that 23-year-old girl, I want to cry,” she wrote in her memoir per page six. “I want to tell her that everything is going to be okay, that she hasn’t even started living her life yet. But in that moment, the only answer seemed to be to jump.”
The mother of two, whose concerns about Brady’s return to the NFL and the couple’s eventual divorce garnered widespread public attention, has since changed her perspective – and has been nothing but grateful, although she was naturally saddened by the family breakdown.
“I look at my life and wouldn’t have it any other way.” she told Cowan in a separate preview of the interview on Sunday. “I wouldn’t have had a different life, I wouldn’t have done it if they had said, ‘Can you change something in your life?’ I wouldn’t change absolutely anything.”
Bündchen reportedly first met Brady on a blind date in 2006. She then married him and they had their first child in 2009.
“Listen, I was always rooting for him and I would keep going forever.” she told Vanity Fair at the time. “If there is one person I want to be the happiest in the world, it is him, believe me. I want him to achieve something and win. I want all his dreams to come true.”
She continued, “This is what I want, truly from the bottom of my heart.”