Kate Lawler has shared about the suicidal thoughts she went through after giving birth to her daughter last year
Kate Lawler has shared about the suicidal thoughts she experienced after giving birth, before she chose to take antidepressants.
The TV personality, 41, has found it quite difficult to adjust to her new life after giving birth to daughter Noa last February.
Kate doesn’t understand where her emotions are coming from and feels that she has ruined both her partner Martin “Boj” Bojtos, 38, and her own life.
At one point she admitted to coming close to shaking Noa. In her new book, Maybe Baby, she shares about this experience.
She said: “With depression, you think, ‘I don’t understand why I have these emotions when I have so much to be happy about. I’ve got a roof and I’ve got a family and a family. My partner loves me and I’ve got my dogs and a job, and I have a healthy baby.’
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“You can’t really understand it, but there have been times when I’ve sat in daycare and felt so low that I wanted to kill myself. I thought, ‘I don’t want to be here anymore. I’ve ruined myself. I’ve ruined Boj’s life.’ And I’ve never been like this before. I started looking up suicide rates on Google in new mothers and it was amazing.”
inside Save Lives, Improve Maternal Care Report In 2021, it was reported that maternal suicide remains the leading cause of direct deaths occurring within one year of the end of pregnancy.
Kate confessed that she later felt resentment towards her partner because she “knew” she would experience these feelings after having children.
She wrote: “Back then I thought: ‘I’ve been resisting the idea of having a baby for so long because I knew I was going to feel like this.” That’s really hard to deal with, because I would feel resentment towards Boj. He is a saint for bearing with me, for I have suffered so much.
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“I’m so lucky to have a partner who really matches how I feel – he might say. I can’t believe he’s still with me and still wants to marry me.”
Kate claims that getting a night nanny to help three nights a week and seeing both individual and couple therapists has helped her improve her mental health.
She tried CBD oil for a while before deciding that antidepressants were the answer.
After Noa’s first birthday, Kate took to Instagram, telling her 410k followers: “I think we’re seeing a shift towards women being more open and honest about mental health. them after giving birth.It is important to have these conversations.
“I don’t think it’s going to happen to me. I want to normalize having postpartum depression or even just feeling low and like you made a mistake or you regret having a baby, because It’s normal to feel that way. It really is. It’s tough, raising kids. I’ve never found it easy, even when Noa is in her mid-teens.”
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https://www.mirror.co.uk/3am/celebrity-news/kate-lawler-felt-suicidal-after-26454646 Kate Lawler felt suicidal after giving birth to Noa before taking antidepressants