I recently bought what is probably the most expensive ship I have ever owned EVE Online: the Vargur. I’ve fallen in love with this ship since I saw its design in the in-game ship tree browser, so owning one was my goal. The previous Bastion update finally tipped the scales and made me spend the time in the training queue learning how to pilot the massive warship successfully.
Now that I can, though, I’m scared of flying that thing.
It’s a weird thing that comes up in full loot PvP games, the idea of real risk and real reward. EVE Online embodies this, although other titles throughout MMORPG history have also used this to great effect.
I remember making my first rune armor RuneScape Back in the day. I was so proud when it finally happened. My friend Brad and I set out to get to this point and when we did we thought we were invincible.
Or maybe I just did it.
When I took my haughty self into the wild, I almost immediately became PKed and lost the armor I had worked so hard to acquire. It was an enduring moment of hubris and loss that has stayed with me to this day, almost two decades later.
Since then I’ve mostly avoided full loot PvP matches as a general rule. This sense of loss was profound, and it was something I wanted to avoid at all costs. EVE Online was the only glaring exception. I adore the world of New Eden and have stayed there for most of my piloting career relative Security near some high security rooms.
That doesn’t mean it is secure – Nowhere in New Eden is safe, and that’s part of my problem.
I have written about dealing with losses in EVE before, especially when I lost my Orca or my Machariel thanks to my own hubris. That feels different. Maybe it’s the sheer amount of ISK my new Vargur costs – even when I bought my Orca back a few years ago it wasn’t nearly as expensive as it is now. However, over a billion ISK just for the hull is a lot, and that’s not even counting the cost of fitting it.
I could easily have spent over 3 billion ISK on this ship. Not to mention the almost year it took to fly the thing. Saving my ISK, training, and just waiting is nerve-wracking, and knowing New Eden, a shiny, expensive ship like the Vargur, is a compelling goal, even in Hisec space.
So for now my Vargur stays docked at my home station, waiting for me to finally work up the courage to fly the hull. The old saying in EVE Online My motto here is: never fly what you can’t afford to lose. I can’t afford to lose the Vargur right now. I can use my Caracal, Gila, Stratios, Astero – even my PvP equipped Machariel. But the Vargur feels like too much at the moment.
But maybe someday.
Do you feel that in full loot PvP titles you play? Does the thought of losing your stuff sometimes stop you from actually playing the game, similar to mine here? Let me know in the comments below.
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https://www.mmorpg.com/columns/loss-in-mmos-im-too-afraid-to-fly-my-new-eve-online-ship-2000124768 Loss in MMOs: I’m too scared to fly my new EVE Online ship