Jacques O’Neill has said he “couldn’t cope” in the Love Island mansion after quitting the hit reality dating show.
The rugby player, 23, announced his exit from the ITV2 series in Tuesday’s episode, telling islanders he needed to “get back to himself” during the emotional scenes.
After leaving the country, he told The Sun: “Making Love Island was the worst decision of my life. I’m ready to break.
“I feel so exhausted mentally, I just want to go home and calm down.
“It broke me and I was already broken. I cried all my tears. I cannot cope.
“I really feel terrible. It was the worst thing I’ve ever felt in my life. “
His departure from the show comes after days of trying to win back his partner Paige Thorne after revealing that he kissed Cheyanne Kerr while she was away at Casa Amor.
“I watched episodes of Casa Amor to torture myself and look at my actions,” he said. I was disgusted in myself, I understood hate. I’m feeling pretty numb.
“I’ll wait for Paige outside, but I won’t watch the show again, I can’t do it.”
Before deciding to leave the show, the 23-year-old nearly had a physical argument with Adam Collard, who wanted to pursue his Paige co-star.
Jacques said: “I was thinking if I didn’t get out of myself, things could get worse and I might suffer physically.
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“At home, you can remove yourself from situations, but there you have to face every situation, and in that moment I took off my microphone and went straight through the front door because I just wanted to get out. out of that place.
“The producers tried to come to me, they were like, ‘Jacques, are you okay?, I’m saying, ‘I don’t want to talk to you or anyone. I want to be for myself’. It too much.
“I told them, ‘This isn’t just a TV show for me,’ those are the sincere emotions involved and my headspace isn’t appropriate for being on a TV show.
“I’ve dealt with things in there that I’ve never dealt with in my life.”
He added that he “couldn’t deal with it” and cried to ITV bosses, saying “I’m ready to go home.”
Jacques, who was diagnosed with attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) at the age of 9, talks about living in the villa with his condition.
He said: “Eventually any little thing in the villa started to bother me and I just got in too much trouble.
“I know the way I talk to Paige is wrong. I tried to apologize and she kept asking why I did it.
“ADHD is not just about not being able to concentrate. It’s also about feeling a lot of anxiety, a lot of stress. “
Jacques added that he received overwhelming support from the ADHD community after he left the country.
“The number of adult men who have texted me saying that I am their inspiration is overwhelming,” he said.
A Love Island spokesperson said: “We are unable to comment on any individual’s medical records because of confidentiality and our duty of care to the islanders, however, we do. I did rigorous testing and scale to assess the physical and mental health of the islanders before being removed. to enter the villa. This is something we take very seriously.
“As we said at the time, Jacques has made the decision to leave and we respect that decision.
“Island residents are welcome to leave if they choose to do so and we will never pressure someone to stay at the villa.”
Love Island continues to air at 9pm on ITV2 and ITV Hub.
https://www.independent.ie/entertainment/doing-love-island-was-the-worst-decision-of-my-life-says-jacques-oneill-41846128.html Making Love Island was the worst decision of my life, says Jacques O’Neill