A woman has shared how having big breasts made her feel “trapped” in her own body and like no one would ever love her – but reduction surgery changed her life
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Ever since she was a teenager, Boudicca Langer-Hann knew her body was different from her friends’.
Her breasts were much larger than others and she never felt right in her own skin because of it.
The events manager from Dorset, now 40, has revealed how she grew to 34G breasts and felt “trapped” in her body as she was prevented from pursuing her dreams of becoming a gymnast or dancer.
The mum-of-two also says she gave her a lot of unwanted attention as big breasts are considered “sexy”.
But everything changed for Boudicca after she underwent “life-changing” reduction surgery to remove 850g of excess weight from her breasts.
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“I felt trapped in my own body as I never thought they would suit me,” she says.
“I’ve been called ‘Boobs’ quite a lot, even by close friends, and it’s always hurt me.
“I received a lot of sexual attention like I wanted it, and it seemed like people assumed I was ‘ready’ to be that ‘sexy.’ [due to my boobs].
“I still find it amazing how someone would think there is a place to comment on another person’s body.
“I developed late and was happy to be a ‘little elf girl’ – and I wanted to be a gymnast but my body didn’t want it for me.
“My mental health was terrible and I was convinced that I was really fat.
“I got bigger and bigger, especially after having kids – I was a mess, depressed and felt like there was nothing I could do about it.
“I felt like no one should love me, I couldn’t love myself.”
At the age of 33, she signed up for a breast reduction consultation, but was initially told to wait in case she wanted more children.
The mother-of-one reluctantly agreed as she believes there are benefits to having “natural” breasts while breastfeeding.
But she immediately started thinking about surgery again after the birth of her second child and signed up for the August 2021 procedure, which cost £6,849.
She recalls, “I decided this was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity and I should take advantage of it.
“Even though I was a little scared, I wanted to be who I wanted to be.
“Mr. Sawyer, my surgeon, made me decide whether I wanted to do D or C [cup size] and on the day of my surgery I decided on a C.”
From her 34G cup size, she now has 30C breasts and claims that 450g of weight has been removed from one breast alone.
After the reduction, Boudicca’s recovery process was initially quite difficult and she struggled with her “cut-up” appearance.
“I was distant for a while and not with it. I felt crushed because I wasn’t responding well to the morphine,” the mother explained.
“When you’re all dismembered and it’s right in front of you, it’s very hard to imagine that you’re going to heal.
“There were a few days right after that where I was a little bit upset and worried about the feeling [this way].”
But after a long healing process, she’s finally feeling able to love her body again — she’s becoming more active with her kids and doing things she’s never done before, like running.
She also feels so much happier and more confident, “smiles so much more” and wishes she had done it sooner.
Boudicca is now sharing her experience on her Instagram, hoping to provide helpful insights to her followers.
She added: “I’ve searched the internet for answers and found a lot of comfort in other women’s posts on Instagram.
“I felt I should be accountable [my journey] too and I’m so glad I did.
“I’ve answered a lot of questions from women who have thought about it or are about to have surgery.
“It’s normal to be scared as it’s such a big deal and a very emotional one too.
“But in the end it’s so worth it – so please conquer the fear and shortly thereafter you will be living your new and improved life.
“Go on websites and research different surgeons – if you come across a surgeon online with no reviews, you’d probably better stay away.
“Go to multiple consultations as you are spending a bunch of money and you should definitely shop around to see what is best for you.
“One of my best post-op moments was buttoning a jacket all the way up – sensational.”
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