Big Brother star tragically Nikki Grahame passed away aged just 38 in April 2021 after her anorexia worsened during the shutdown and she became very unwell and light heavy weight
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Nikki Grahame’s mother has shared heartbreakingly that she tries to feel closer to her daughter as she spends the night in her apartment.
The Big Brother star passed away at the age of 38 in April 2021 after her anorexia worsened during the shutdown and she became very unwell and severely underweight.
She struggled with an eating disorder since the age of eight and was admitted to more than 17 institutions over the years to receive treatment.
In a Channel 4 documentary, airing tonight, Nikki’s mother Sue returns to Nikki’s apartment to organize her things.
Into her bedroom, she said, “When I came here and stayed in her apartment, I slept here a little bit in her bed, cuddling Pingu, whom she actually cuddled with when she dies I cuddle him every night because it brings me a little closer to Nikki.
“And I hang [Nikki’s NTAs dress] this [on cupboard door], so I go to bed with one last look and when I wake up, it’s there. It is very special to me. “
Opening up about Nikki’s struggles during the lockdown, she said, “When the lockdown happened in 2020, I don’t know if it was a harbinger or not, but Nikki was really, really scared. She knew she was going to be isolated and she. actually said to me, “I don’t know how I’m going to get through this.”
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Purdy Smith, a friend of Nikki’s, said: “Lockdown is probably the worst thing that could happen to Nikki. If the lockdown hadn’t happened, we probably wouldn’t be sitting here right now.”
Imogen Thomas, who appeared on Big Brother with Nikki in 2006, recalls receiving a horrifying call from Nikki in which she said she had committed suicide.
“One Sunday morning she called me and said, ‘Imogen, I just want to die.’ The first thing I did was call an ambulance,” she said. “The paramedics came but she didn’t take the ambulance. The paramedics told her ‘One day your body will give up on Nikki, but we can’t take you against our will. your wish’.
“Sometimes I think if she had been in the ambulance that day, it could have saved her.”
Nikki was later admitted to the hospital after falling on a chemist, but sadly later passed away.
Sue said: “Watching them put my little girl in a bag, take her down the elevator and I asked them. “And I just stroked it from the outside. They took her away and I didn’t see her again. A part of me died and I miss her, more than I can say.”
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* Nikki Grahame: Who is she? broadcast at 9pm tonight on Channel 4
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