Ex-Hollyoaks actor Paul Danan, 43, revealed he had terrifying hallucinations after doing cocaine in a hotel room
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Paul Danan has said he suffered a drug relapse and became homeless during the initial lockdown.
The ex-Hollyoaks actor, 43, revealed he had terrifying hallucinations after doing cocaine in a hotel room.
He has been to rehab 17 times in his life and has a history of cocaine addiction but has been clean for two years now.
Speak with The sunPaul said that he felt “so awful, guilty and ashamed” when he started using again and that it got “really scary”.
“I didn’t want to be alone in lockdown so I left my flat in Hertfordshire and moved back in with mum and dad in Essex,” he said. “I thought everything would be fine as I hadn’t touched drugs in 18 months and life was good.”
Paul, who was diagnosed with ADHD in 2019, has found the lockdown restrictions difficult to deal with as being around people often helped his condition.
However, because his father was at high risk, he was unable to meet anyone for a walk in case he contracted and passed on the virus.
“It was also really hard not being able to see my son, DeNiro, who was locked away in London with his mom,” he said of his six-year-old son with his ex.
Paul explained that he was getting “really bad cabin fever” and frustration – which led to him relapsing two months later in May 2020 after quitting his apartment.
Revealing he didn’t want to keep paying for an apartment he wasn’t staying in, he went to pick up his stuff and while cleaning out discovered an “empty bag” that “triggered something”.
He said: “I ended up bumping into someone outside and got some cocaine from him. It was a moment like, ‘Fuck it, I’m not going to get another chance.’ Then I went back to my parents and used.
“I only had a few lines, but it was enough to get me going again. They say one line is too many, a thousand is never enough, and that’s how it is.”
He afterwards felt “guilty and ashamed” after spending over £1million on rehab and recovery over the years.
He then left his parents’ house to stay with a friend in Bournemouth who had said he would help him with his detox.
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But when he arrived, Paul explained that the apartment was “really dingy” and he didn’t feel comfortable there.
The couple eventually fell apart and Paul, after an argument, was dropped off at a train station by his pal, leaving him homeless.
He was unable to check into any hotels due to the lockdown and ended up going to the beach to buy drugs. Paul said he met some “shady guys” who stole his things and that it was almost midnight and he had nowhere to go.
“It got scary,” Paul revealed. “I just walked the streets trying to get places but every hotel said no to me and I was in tears. I was basically homeless.
“I wish I was back with my mom and dad, but they were mad at me for going through this with me so many times.”
Paul was helped by a taxi driver who took him to his brother’s hotel and he crashed there before heading to London for rehab in the morning.
Unfortunately, Paul missed his appointment and managed to check into a west London hotel, where he holed up and “things got really bad”.
He explained that he eventually found another merchant and started consuming in that space on a daily basis.
Paul said: “I didn’t eat anything except a croissant that day from the hotel’s breakfast buffet and then went back to the room. People were worried, calling and asking where I was, but I was going insane.
“I went psychotic and thought the police would come through the door.”
Luckily, he managed to get himself into a rehabilitation facility in the Cotswolds, which gave him treatment that “saved.” [his] Life”.
While there, he realized he wasn’t taking the right ADHD medications and they helped him gain his confidence to achieve his dream of teaching theater to people with ADHD.
Since then he has developed The Morning After Theater program which has grown and developed into a charity.
Paul added: “I can honestly say I’m as happy as I’ve ever been. I’m in the best shape I’ve been in years as I play a lot of tennis and I see an amazing girl too.
“In a weird way, I’m thankful I went through the lockdown throwback as I wouldn’t be where I am now after achieving everything I’ve accomplished.”
https://www.mirror.co.uk/3am/celebrity-news/paul-danan-says-became-homeless-26395589 Paul Danan says he was left homeless and suffered a drug relapse during the lockdown